Just some rambling.

Hey readers, how goes it? I hope its all going well.

Tonight I just want to ramble about a few things that have been in my mind of late.

First off, as you've read before - I went to get an eye exam. Well, everything went well; there wasn't any major change in my vision. Praise God, because I have, I don't want to say horrible vision, but pretty close. Also, I thought my glasses had gotten in today - because my dad had gotten a call from the place saying they were in. So we get there and only his were in. Now, I have to wait until Thursday or Friday to get mine - which isn't to bad I guess.

Another thing I've been thinking and praying about is getting a job. I've filled out three applications in the past. I didn't hear anything back from those places (I'm thinking it's because I was to scared to call them and see if they got a chance to take a look at the application, but I'm not for sure.) Anywho, so I applied at another place this morning; and I'm going to really try to not let my nerves get in the way of calling them. I don't know what it is, but I get super nervous whenever I call someone or they call me. I don't know, it's weird. I'm going to be praying about it as well, that God calms my nerves and things of that sort. Because I really want to get a job so I don't always have to rely on my parents for everything I want or need. I just want to be more independent.

Moving on. Man, these past couple weeks have been rough. I don't know what's come over me. I just felt like lost I guess. I felt like a totally different person. I mean it was really bad. I was just hurt. And I honestly don't know what caused it. It's like, since January I've felt like un-appreciated. Everything I do is criticized. I can't do anything right, and that really hurts. Because I try really hard to be "good enough" and do everything "right" and it doesn't seem like I can.

On a happier note, I should be graduating school in a few months! I'm super excited about that.

I will be 18 in July, the 11th to be exact. I've got mixed feeling about that. I'm excited because I will be an adult, yet scared to be an adult. I want to go off on my own, yet scared too. See what I mean. Like sometimes I can't wait to be out of this house, and just do what I want - then other times it's like I'm scared to leave. Ahhh! So confusing, I know.

Oh, also I tried my hand at writing. I've got a good idea and I've written some of it out. It's at a standstill at the moment because I want to get all the facts from the time period and things of that nature. But, I've been so busy with school I haven't had time to do anything like that. So, hopefully I can get back to that.

Remember when I posted about Instagram? Yeah, I'm kinda over that whole thing now. I still use it, but not as often.

Hmm, what else has been on my mind..? Oh yes, my photography. That's actually something I've stuck with. Normally I'll do something for like a week then get tired of it, but not this. Yay! Although, I would like to be able to capture other scenes besides the sunsets out my window. Not that they aren't pretty and all, but they can be a bit boring at times. I just want to be able to express myself through my photography, and be able to explore different things.

Well, I think that's everything that's been on my mind of late; and I think I've rambled enough. Hopefully I kept your attention and you read the whole thing. If not, my apologies. Well, if you didn't read the whole thing, you would see my apology. Silly me.

Thanks for reading! And I hope I didn't bore you.

~With Lots of Love